Digging through the ashes,
while the flames still burn;
all the while, hoping inside,
to find a lesson to learn.
Crying out in painful agony,
as the coals singe soft flesh;
inhaling the smoke of the past,
waiting for the browser to refresh.
While denying the fire is dancing,
watching the skin slip away;
wondering if this is a kind of hell,
deciding what there is to say.
Remembering skipping stones on water,
watching the ripples grow and fade;
thinking of the series of mistakes,
as the ghostly images are replayed.
The regret of love unaccomplished,
conditioned by manipulations that lie;
fearing the inevitable, eventual change,
while typing a cautious, conscience reply.
Twisting love into hate and anger,
to destroy all, surrounded by walls of flame;
from the ashes of old, the Phoenix rises,
into unknown new, nothing stays the same.
~greyeyesgabriel 2012
Nobody knows me when I get like this… or why I clench my fists. How can you even understand why I act this way? Giving it away… all caught up in the fray.
How can you say that you know what is best for me… you can’t even see what is in front of me.
Taking all that was mine… my trigger finger shakin’ while I’m loosing my mind… I’m one of a kind individually… You can’t see… my animosity for your atrocities.
You’re jaded… I’m beyond frustrated… this is hatred for all that you do… I’m coming for you. My hands are shaking and clenched in a rage… you just let a demon out of it’s cage.
Your popularity is is wearing on me I see what you would have me to be.
Yet I’ll stand right here just like a ghost not giving an inch to you because it matters the most that you let me… never let you forget me. I’ll make you wish that you never even met me. I’m free… because blood was shed, get that through your head or you’ll end up dead.
You sit there thinking that your drinking from the Fountain with your back to me while I’m climbing this mountain of bureaucracy and you can’t even see that you forgot about me now it’s my turn… oh yeah… look at it burn.
I’m warning you… we can see through all of the things you do to try and glorify you. I’ve been down this road before, you corporate whore… I’ll dust your ass and I won’t even think about it anymore.
Impossible? Yeah right whatever… keep believing that sh*t and you’ll be gone forever. I’m not as stupid as you would want me to be… you’re the dumb *ss for thinking that you could do this to me.
How long… do you think that this could even go on? Forever? B*tch you were wrong.
I’m tellin’ all that will listen…. this situation… something is missing. So go ahead and try… now you gotta die…. I’m takin’ back mine… I’m not the only one of my kind.
That’s right you forgot about me… my liberty… equality… you want me under educated… you’re overrated… jaded… we know the truth has been fabricated. The time has come for you to pay the bill the People’s will is gonna leave you castrated.
Surprised? Quit selling your lies… look at my eyes… what do you see? All that you have taken from me? No man this goes beyond hate… it’s disgust… f*ck with me and it’s fate…
~Mojo 2011
(Source: facebook.com)
Her eyes shine, full of hope;
her smile hides her sorrow.
As she wipes away her tears;
with faith of a better tomorrow.
Gathering the pieces of her heart;
to sew it back together with love.
Knowing her blessing is reserved;
an angel sent to her from above.
She displays strength and courage;
as she struggles to hold back tears.
Doubting her efforts as a mother;
even though she knows it’s just a fear.
She has been taken for granted;
and her generosity abused.
Her spirit can not be broken;
though it is slightly bruised.
Her beauty is her endless love;
which is reflected in her friends.
Her faith will bring her a prince;
with compassion that never ends.
Long forgotten, the passion which stirs;
healing her scars, with a gentle kiss.
Her patient prayers have been answered;
showering her with a comfortable bliss.
Does she know she healed his scars too;
or just how much his passion grew?
Does she really know how she affects him;
or do you even know, this is about you?
~greyeyesgabriel 2011
As I journey into my Empty Garden,
on my way to dig another hole;
to bury these memories I keep,
which binds and burdens my soul.
I think of your smile,
and how it made me feel;
in my heart always knowing,
that together we could heal.
As sink my shovel into the sand,
to make the hole go deeper;
I know why nothing grows here,
because I am the only keeper.
I remember your words,
as the wounds turn to scars;
still bleeding within my heart,
I seek to lock behind these bars.
As I look around my Empty Garden,
I feel the desolation and misery;
memories of rejected despair,
here alone, I will always be.
My memory of arms around you,
holding each other so tightly, I see;
I shall place into this deepest hole,
it’s survival, to keep it from killing me.
As I place this memory into the ground,
knowing I have lost my lovely friend;
I water the lonely dirt with my tears,
standing in the bitter wind of the end.
~greyeyesgabriel 2011
Forever and eternal.
Ulcers sucking life.
Carnivorous plants that heal.
Kill for the thrill.
Over and over.
Feeling pain through pleasure.
Finding Darkness where there is light.
Anarchy spreading it’s disease.
Never afflicted always infected.
Death overcoming life.
Deprivation bleeds fulfillment.
Indestructible destruction.
Everything is nothing.
~greyeyesgabriel 1992
Shadows dance across my heart,
or at least the shards which remain;
rattling like glass within my sunken chest,
silently announcing the tormented pain.
Fading light through restricted suffering,
dripping toxic poison through my spirit;
bleeding out upon the alter of offering,
flesh filled death, I shall not fear it.
Bury me in the Empty Garden I own,
and leave me alone with a black rose;
allow the earth to crush my bone,
and cast my dust as the wind blows.
My memory darkens all which it touches,
never really alive, remember me not;
no more tears, no more feeling gushes,
as utterly alone, I lay here and rot.
~greyeyesgabriel 2011
Welcome,
if you will,
to a world of;
unrealistic dreams,
underachieved goals,
broken relationships,
shattered hopes,
and hanging ropes.
Welcome to reality.
~greyeyesgabriel 1995
Out here in the darkness,
there is no light,
no way to resolve this.
Out here in the darkness,
it is cold and lonely,
no way to develop this.
Out here in the darkness,
there are no friends,
only a bitter end.
Out here in the darkness,
no one even cares,
they don’t even dare.
Out here in the darkness,
I am all alone,
which chills me to the bone.
~greyeyesgabriel 2005
Digging through the twilight,
on the way to the new dawn;
lost within the depth of this hole,
searching for some warm sun.
Growing out of the fertile dusk,
drinking the fluid of ignorant bliss;
reaching to breach oppressive crust,
longing for that precious gentle kiss.
Busting out into the light of day,
stretching out as if climbing rope;
spreading out to capture the glow,
feeding on only the love of hope.
~greyeyesgabriel 2011
As the sun goes down;
my lonliness grows.
In my apathy, I drown;
to dust, returns my rose.
In my empty garden;
nothing beautiful grows.
Dirt is the only pardon;
not even water flows.
It is barren and lifeless;
not even the flies visit.
In this misery is bliss;
as, here alone, I sit.
This garden knows no love;
only sacrifice lives here.
No promises from above;
only pain and despair.
So, as one, I sit;
bitterly the wind blows.
All I feel is the grit;
and suffering is all that grows.
~greyeyesgabriel 2004
