January 2012
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Coals of the Phoenix
Digging through the ashes, while the flames still burn; all the while, hoping inside, to find a lesson to learn. Crying out in painful agony, as the coals singe soft flesh; inhaling the smoke of the past, waiting for the browser to refresh. While denying the fire is dancing, watching the skin slip away; wondering if this is a kind of hell, deciding what there is to say. Remembering skipping...
November 2011
2 posts
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Revolution
Nobody knows me when I get like this… or why I clench my fists. How can you even understand why I act this way? Giving it away… all caught up in the fray. How can you say that you know what is best for me… you can’t even see what is in front of me. Taking all that was mine… my trigger finger shakin’ while I’m loosing my mind… I’m one of a kind...
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Outside Looking In
Her eyes shine, full of hope; her smile hides her sorrow. As she wipes away her tears; with faith of a better tomorrow. Gathering the pieces of her heart; to sew it back together with love. Knowing her blessing is reserved; an angel sent to her from above. She displays strength and courage; as she struggles to hold back tears. Doubting her efforts as a mother; even though she knows it’s...
October 2011
2 posts
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Funeral Of Memories
As I journey into my Empty Garden, on my way to dig another hole; to bury these memories I keep, which binds and burdens my soul. I think of your smile, and how it made me feel; in my heart always knowing, that together we could heal. As sink my shovel into the sand, to make the hole go deeper; I know why nothing grows here, because I am the only keeper. I remember your words, as the wounds turn...
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FOAD
Forever and eternal. Ulcers sucking life. Carnivorous plants that heal. Kill for the thrill. Over and over. Feeling pain through pleasure. Finding Darkness where there is light. Anarchy spreading it’s disease. Never afflicted always infected. Death overcoming life. Deprivation bleeds fulfillment. Indestructible destruction. Everything is nothing. ~greyeyesgabriel 1992
September 2011
5 posts
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Slow Death
Shadows dance across my heart, or at least the shards which remain; rattling like glass within my sunken chest, silently announcing the tormented pain. Fading light through restricted suffering, dripping toxic poison through my spirit; bleeding out upon the alter of offering, flesh filled death, I shall not fear it. Bury me in the Empty Garden I own, and leave me alone with a black rose; allow the...
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Reality Check
Welcome, if you will, to a world of; unrealistic dreams, underachieved goals, broken relationships, shattered hopes, and hanging ropes. Welcome to reality. ~greyeyesgabriel 1995
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In The Darkness
Out here in the darkness, there is no light, no way to resolve this. Out here in the darkness, it is cold and lonely, no way to develop this. Out here in the darkness, there are no friends, only a bitter end. Out here in the darkness, no one even cares, they don’t even dare. Out here in the darkness, I am all alone, which chills me to the bone. ~greyeyesgabriel 2005
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Growing Hope
Digging through the twilight, on the way to the new dawn; lost within the depth of this hole, searching for some warm sun. Growing out of the fertile dusk, drinking the fluid of ignorant bliss; reaching to breach oppressive crust, longing for that precious gentle kiss. Busting out into the light of day, stretching out as if climbing rope; spreading out to capture the glow, feeding on only the...
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Empty Garden
As the sun goes down; my lonliness grows. In my apathy, I drown; to dust, returns my rose. In my empty garden; nothing beautiful grows. Dirt is the only pardon; not even water flows. It is barren and lifeless; not even the flies visit. In this misery is bliss; as, here alone, I sit. This garden knows no love; only sacrifice lives here. No promises from above; only pain and despair. ...
August 2011
5 posts
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Emotional Soup
This emotional soup, stirring within my soul; gently roiling, just beneath the calm surface. Anxiously on the edge, of overflowing the bowl; to flood upon the floor, and wash away all purpose. Slowly rumbling grows, from deep within; drifting and twisting, to blend the chaos. Clouded and confused, behind this grin; silence, loudly screaming, hits me like a bus. Laying smashed, oozing emotional...
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Winning to Lose
Where I was once your rock, your strength; I have become nothing more than a pebble, to toss aside; you have become the rock, and crushed me to gravel.
Crushed into sand, under the heel of your foot; and blown away by the wind, never to be seen again. You stand a mighty mountain, majestic and strong; upon that pedestal, where I once resided.
You have conquered the Lonely King, and banished him...
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Refrain from Pain
A love so deep, we would drown; afraid to feel pain, we hurt ourselves again. Confident together, apart we are terrified; caring beyond friendship, terrified to let love begin. An endless cycle of misery, holding this lovely friendship; keeping love at bay, again we hurt one another. So comfortable in our pain, that love becomes our fear; wishing you were near me, knowing we...
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Hanging Empty Garden
Allow me, for a moment, to step from my comfort zone; and return to a place, which chills me to the bone. My place of solitude, where I carry my despair; and bury it in my garden, suffering the toxic air. Sowing seeds of sorrow, from the misery bowl; tending yesterday’s wounds, pulling weeds from my soul. Planting apathy to drown, watered with tears of salt; filtered through...
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Dark Light
Starlight in the middle of the twilight; to see the path in the darkness. Twisted thorns veining in the moonlight; were only roses in the light of day. Bleeding in the dark, alone and shattered; failing to just lay there and die. Chaotic emotions, poisoned and tattered; beauty growing from death and decay. Gently sowing the seeds of sorrow; tending the garden of despair. Placing hope into growth...
July 2011
2 posts
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Romantic Return
Again you return to my life. Many times I cried, And love cuts me like a knife. Now I feel I have died. Don’t ever leave again; And in you I will confide. ~greyeyesgabriel 1992
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Lovely Friendship
Another reason to live. Memories fade to easily. A memorable night. Now a vision of past love. Don’t forget me. And come back to me. Never leave me. I can’t tell you how much I love. Children of love. Here we are. Occasional love. Long-lasting love. Severed by friendship.
~greyeyesgabriel 1992
June 2011
3 posts
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Kingdom
Wrapped around my mind; You sing into my soul. Divining the passion within; And out of my skin, I roll. Resolving into being; A conscience compassion. Seeding one by one; Ushering love into fashion. Shattered hate swept away; Flooded on down the drain. Washed away into the light; Those darkened days of pain. Nevermore to die again; Delivered from groaning flesh. Spiritual energy, so divine; No...
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Lovely Nightmare
And as the sun fades, so does my mood; Dark and silent, into my mind I creep. Laying alone, feeling so somber; Flowing memories, as I drift off to sleep.
Wishing to dream of love, peace to me; Blended into those memories, I keep. Never knowing, what is around the bend; Discovering only, nightmares I reap.
~greyeyesgabriel 2011
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Social Society
Here we are, all gathered again; Standing on the thrill of the night. The collective breed of love; Evolving into a brilliant sight. Changing the wind today; For a better breeze tomorrow. Sustaining ourselves, for survival; Yesterday, not needing to borrow. Ideals, growing from necessity; Streaming dreams into reality. Universal compassion for all; Understanding is the key. Something...
May 2011
5 posts
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Unknown
I am captivated by her, and she doesn’t even know; the depth that she touches, my spirit, my soul. Into my life she comes and goes, never knowing how I feel; would it change anything, if my secret were to reveal? A friend to the end, so the story goes; never any more, no love to send. So, I lay here and cry, for the feelings I keep; to lose even this, is sorrow to reap. ...
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Spirit
To exhale my soul, and escape my fleshy shell; to exist in another dimension, away from this hell. To release my energy, and change frequency; to vibrate all around you, yet you cannot see. To live eternally free, no concern for tomorrow; to no longer feel, neither grief nor sorrow. To be as light on a beam, wandering wherever may; to live within a dream, watching over...
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Giving Up
Ripped from my chest, my heart still beating; this painful cycle, still stuck repeating. Tears mark the sorrow, of pain not felt with flesh; torn emotions flow, from this wound so fresh. Crying to release the suffering, of this faith lost again; still wondering within, when is it my turn to win. Losing the best parts of me, my flesh and blood, my kin; away they go from my sight, to...
My nerves. Shot. Seized. Torn. Clenched. Muscles Ciezed. Tense. His hands, I am like butter. I melt. I love. I cum.
My ribs and bones. I breathe. I moan. My ribs and blade. I hitch my breathe, I gasp. I loose air.
I moan a death. Over the steam and the hot air. My cry, is like your arc of cum. Like the words pouring out from a preachers mouth, a hymn of rock and roll. a song that ends with my...
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Alone In The Garden
Come what may, whatever will; a kiss from your lips, I’ll never feel. A visit to the garden, my private place; surrounded by none, wounds to erase. Where loneliness grows, to reap my sorrow; filling a basket of despair, to sell tomorrow. Sitting in silence, among the dust; patiently waiting, for life to rust. Although cloudy, there is no rain; through the haze, responds my pain. No...
February 2011
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Only For A Moment
I held it in my arms; only for a moment. And then it was gone; in just a moment. It felt so good; it felt so right. It flew away; that fateful night. It is a feeling; I have felt before. So strong and real; it can not be ignored. It was my heart; she came and stole. Where it once was; is now an empty hole. So, now I sit; and now I wait. Will she bring it back; it is all up to...
December 2010
8 posts
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Lost Key
I have imprisoned myself, in my life; Punishing my soul, by my own strife. I disappear, and no one cares; No one loves me, don’t even dare. I put myself in here, and lost the key; Now I can’t get out, I can’t break free. Within here, I am stuck and I fell; Locked inside my own personal hell. It’s my own fault, that I am here; No one to blame, but me. My mind is my...
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The Sea Spider
The Spider sat by the sea; and wondered, what could be. If she only had a boat; then away she would float. Carefree, drifting with ease; spinning webs in the breeze. When the boat came to rest; she would build a nest. She would lay her young; and sail off into the sun. She slowly closed her eyes; then laid down and died. Along came a wave; that took her to her grave. Now she...
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Life's Little Experiment
Looking through a microscope; I begin to see it all. Offering us false hope; Or, is it just withdrawal? How would you cope; If you were the experiment, And the scientists destroyed us all? Looking through a telescope; I understand it all. If you’ll read the circles; Then you’ll hear their call. The scientists ride upon their wheels; Proving we are small. ~greyeyesgabriel...
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Smith County Freedom
Behind these bars, I cannot sleep; Only now, your memory I keep. Counting time by days, not hours; Not minutes, not seconds, not even showers. I see no stars, I see no moon; Hoping only, to return home soon. Somewhere deep inside, I feel to shout; Twisting and pulling my insides out. Nothing soft, just stone and steel; Cold and hard, blood to spill. My mind, it runs to be outside; ...
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Perforation Of World
Separated by boundaries; Lines we cannot see. There on the map; Dotted around Tennessee. Perforation of the world; Is what they want to be. Kept apart by lines on paper; Because together, we’d be free. ~greyeyesgabriel 1996
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The Troll Bridge
The Troll lived under the bridge, where he drew his blood. The Troll lived under the bridge, way down there in the mud. The Troll came out at night, for he’d burn up in the sun. The Troll came out at night, to have his wicked fun. The Troll lived under the bridge, ashamed of the lies he told. The Troll lived under the bridge, because of the life he chose. ~greyeyesgabriel 2006
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Insane Nation
Remember with me; If you will, To when we were free; Before, we came to steal. Fleeing persecution; To live with no law, Too busy with evolution; To see ourselves fall. Running as fast as we can; To escape our great demise, Becoming All-American; Covering our past with lies. What a great web we wove; So great it covers the earth, Tangled terribly in the grove; The insanity started...
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Lost
Destroying my dreams, Surrounded by nothing, But screams.Fading deep inside, Becoming among them lost, Shattered under my pride. Undoing who I used to be, No more lies, To tell to me. Running away from myself, Escaping from the pain, Putting my dreams on the shelf. What I’ve lost, I can not find, It fell far away from me, And slipped out of my mind. ~greyeyesgabriel 2005
November 2010
14 posts
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Thoughts of You
I awoke this morning; My thoughts are of you. As they are of you; Proving this love is true. The sun through my window; Fills up the room. The way your light shines; And washes away the gloom. When I think of you; It brightens my day. Letting me know, I love you; In that old-fashioned way. You stay in my heart; All the day long. And I think of you; When I hear our special song. And...
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“Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.’”
– Edgar Allen Poe
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The Perfect Monarch
One hot summer day, my friends and I were running. I stopped, but they continued running; when Melissa turned to see that I was cut and bleeding. She yelled for everyone to stop, when they saw what was happening, they all ran after Melissa, back to me. They all stood and stared at me, I suddenly felt like I couldn’t breathe and passed out. When I awoke, on my nose was the most perfect...
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Garden Of Insanity
Alone, I sit in despair; In the center of this garden. Only hope to repair; Seeking for a lonely pardon. Suffering grows around me; As only dust blows. To enter, misery is the fee; Never, the pain slows. Time stops, here is eternal; Escape not possible in death. Reading the Reaper’s journal; Living on, without a breath. Grieving for this life; The wind blowing sorrow. Fenced within this...
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Vampid Nomad *original
Travelling by night; Can’t stand the day; Light is too bright; Time to catch a moon ray.
~greyeyesgabriel 1992
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Vampid Nomad *revised
Travelling by night; Can’t stand the day; Light is too bright; Time to catch a moon ray. Quench this thirst of blood; Behind the barn, in the hay; Dancing triumphantly in the mud; What a wildly spectacular display. Always hidden by sunrise; Someplace dark and away; To escape the light’s demise; Of the sun’s penetrating rays. Arise at sunset, to begin; In one place I...
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Forest Wisdom
It began as a trek through my soul; And out of it, destiny arose. Way, far east of Abilene; Is where the mushroom grows. Not quite as far as the Sabine; Is where the holy cows roam. If you come to find a patch; Eat one there, no questions asked. Oh, the wonders to be found; How many ideas, floating around? My destiny soon arose; The answers were before my nose. My eyes were opened; ...
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A Simple Suggestion
Expression of the soul; Is a very passionate thing. If we would let it roar; Then Freedom would ring. ~greyeyesgabriel 1996
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The Empire
Our destiny died; On the shores of the ocean. We stretched from sea to sea; And, we killed our emotion. We crossed the Great Divide; And, we collapsed with a notion. We built a great nation; Then destroyed it with our potion. ~greyeyesgabriel 1999
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Free Nation
Running Wild in a free nation. Too busy with frustration. No time for mind masturbation. This is just time a wastin’… ‘cause I’m bored in a free nation. ~greyeyesgabriel 1995
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CODENAME: X
Sever actions; Intensify destructive factions. X-meaning secret; Total cover-up, You must not see. Sixty seconds notice; Everyone is ready. Corrupted hindsight; Onslaught on display. Never ending; Death and dismay. Military might; In an ordinary man. Looking without sight; Into another day. Taking Truth’s light, Into the ragged machine; And Freedom is born; yet, again. ...
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Raging Mother Earth
You choke me with your fumes; My landscape, quickly you consume. You drown my waters with pollution; Killing my creatures is no solution. Warming my soul with solar rays; If you want war, I’ll make you pay. I shall reign with mighty floods; And leave you buried under the mud. Scorching timber in summer’s wake; Volcanos blown, and the ground shall quake. Against mankind, I...
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Runny Johnny, Pork and Beans
Runny Johnny, pork and beans. Had a wife that was his queen. She couldn’t bear his funky smell. So she pushed him deep in the well. When he returned, he smelled like hell. He told her she was mean. Right before, he ripped out her spleen. ~greyeyesgabriel 1996
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Homestead Heaven
There is a little island, in the lake of reality. It is quite a small one, with a population of none. The lake is large and deep, full of secrets, it must keep. It’s a long journey, I assure; dark, lonely, with hardships endured. If you don’t drown in the lake, a little solitude, you can make. I made it here upon the sand, I’m building a home on this island.
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October 2010
9 posts
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A New Birth
Fearing the night will end. There is a world, where night is eternal. There could be a world, as mysterious as this. In light, our minds belong to us. Darkness controls another power. A power of paranoia, of mystery, of delusion. This power runs wild, upon our mind. This is how philosophy is born. ~greyeyesgabriel 2001
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Free Flow 2001
Floating free in a stream; hoping I won’t sink. Trying not to scream; I feel a tiny leak. Lost all in a daydream; watching for her wink. Converting into steam; my soul stretches for the brink. Soaking deeply in the cream; searching for the link. Light enters on a beam; my eyes, they do not blink. Fire burns down the seam; cleaning my spirit for the drink. Do you know what I...